Who's The Leader Of The Club Thats Maid For You and Me?

cheer_mikey79 @ 2007-02-07T05:46:00

2007-02-07T09:46:42Z

well holy shit i would have never thought i would be on this thing.. but amanda said she was on and i remembered how good it felt to write out my thoughts, feelings, goals, and even dreams; and figured what the hell.. if i can get out of my car on the highway and hump the , concrete median why can't i do this again.

well alot of stuff has happened since the last time i have indulged my need to write on this journal, and for the people that know, you know, and if you don't well here's a brief synopsis

1. got engaged
2. found the love of my life
3. felt butterflies for the first time
4. got out of engagement
5. quit the bell
6. worked for the happiest people on earth (or so i thought it was)
7. went back to the bell with my tail between my legs
8. trying to find any kind of job to get back out of the bell

alright there you go ladies and gentlemen. if there is any question you have of my 1-8 , time-line feel free to ask, and by the way that is in order.lol, so here we go to nitty gritty, whats been on my mind, and in my heart for the last few months.

people that have seen me as of late could come up with the opinion that my life evolves around amanda and work. and when those people tell me that i would say "yes on the outside it would appear that way but on the inside... its a whole other bag of stories for the , shrink" you see yes i love amanda and i want to be everything and more for here, i want to be there when she makes it big (because i have faith she will) and i want to be the one who catches her when she falls (because every dog has it day) and yes i am overwhelmed with work, and the bull shit i go through, from the hypocritical bitch ass employees, to the good for nothing piece of scum low life management (except for Ivy) that in my opinon will become nothing more in their lives then what they are now (and at the same time i pray they do). but on the inside there is whole other ball park that does not even bring these two time consumming (for lack of a better word) things. what is in my mind is FEAR, pure horrifying fear.

"Fear of what my good friend Mike"

well fear of this, I'm a 21 year old man working is ass off trying to make some money to move out, but at the same time feeling the inner struggle. (and not about moving out) "Is this all i really am, a punk as manager in a fast food joint.. the punch line to some great commedians jokes! there has to be more then this.. but what..BUT WHAT!" well a wise person once said."Mike in life you will always face adversity, but just remeber what brought you to the quote n quote table... you have a gift just like everyone else, you have to find it and use it to be what you really are suppose to be." great words huh? i thought so, you would figure they have to come from a parent a loved on.. NO they don't they come from to be honest on of my heros.. my 10th grade teacher Mr. Pincus.. and in that same year yes i faced adversity of the worst kind, i lost a loved on..no no i lost the only lady in my life at the time.. and when i came back to school things were just not worth it.. i was on the edge holding the preverbial blade and begging just to see her again, and thats when Ira showed me passion, my gift that God gave me... my ticket to the table!! my ability to write.. for once i was in school and felt good about going to class! but i digress from my point.

some people can find the square root of pretty much anything with the blink of an eye, some people can literaly have every eye on that person when they walk in the room without even trying. Me, i can sit at table, computer, hell even a typewritter, and just let the words flow. especially about my other true passion, Sports.

i have written pages in highschool on superbowls, to the point the teacher told me to "cut it down" and even to this day i can type/talk about why the dolphins were out of the playoffs for yet another year (Thanks Saban!)i can write about how historic it was for the first african american head coach to win a super bowl was more then a "black coach", he was a coach that did it the "christian way", and i can talk about how the term "15 strong" was hold a household term last nba season. but the thing is, yes i can do it, but I LOVE TO DO IT! it gives me so much joy to talk and write about i try to talk about it with amanda..( hahahahaha you should see her face. i love her she honestly trys to get it, what a woman) my dad, my friends, hell even my customers from the bell!

but alas i'm stuck in the eneviroment where medioracracy is king.. where just getting your job done and looking out for yourself is law of the land. And i sit here in my kitchen on my mothers lab top thinking why? i mean i am no fool this career path is no walk in the park, you have a better chance of falling right on your face then becomeing the next chris berman, or a mike greenberg (other men i look up too). But is falling on your face as bad as living a life knowing you have the itch, and the talent to scratch that itch, and being to fucking ignorant or scared to scratch, to see how it feels, to bask in that oh so holly 15 seconds of fame? well i know that its a opinionated question, but its a very valid question

Let me tell you that i am a person who believes in dreams. Martin Luther King Jr. did, and so did another great man Walt Disney, and like these men i know what it feels like to have your dream come true, to taste greatness, to feel victorious. and that is were the real test lies. for most that just have felt it you stop and settle and bask.. apparently these people dont know shit about sports, except that cbs and fox have football, and nascar consists of people driving really fast around a big track. but for me and the few that have made it there in another profession or just personal goal in life, you just can sit back, IT KILLS YOU!! inside, you burn and yurn for more and more because a true champion won't settle unless they are the best. they work sweat practice and let there dream pretty much consume there life.

Thats where the second dilema appears.. and thats for another day

While your chasing ghosts.

2005-10-12T23:00:46Z

first off i want to say that yes i know its been like a whole long time since i have done one of these but oh well.. and what i find real funny is is that im listenin to the same damn band as i did last time i updated. but anyways yeah some stuff has been going down. but its all good, i think its a problem tho when you get use to falling. but to be honest thats were i am right now just use to it, but i also realized that there are more important things happening right now, and i need to prioritise (ha im pretty sure its not spelt like that)my goals. And i know that when i become what i am suppose to become i can look back at this and say thank you God for teaching me to be humble. It just sucks that the nice guy has to finish last isnt it? i mean its rather fustrating, but what doesnt kill you makes u stronger.

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My Hopes Are So High That Your Kiss Might Kill Me

2005-06-28T07:18:17Z

so won't you kill me so i die happy.. lol, well long time no talk.. anywho.. nothing new really i got a new guitar! it took only like 4 years of wanting it but hey i got it.. lol, and i have a playlist of songs i want to learn, starting with prototype by outkast.. then dammit by blink.. scotty doesnt know.. and some others.. it will prolly take some time but hey it will be awsome! anyways leave some love

copied from rich

2005-04-11T04:52:53Z

Your Element Is Water

A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted
and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also
are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily.
You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others.
You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around
waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little
more peaceful.

What's Your Element?

You Have Fantastic Karma

You are a kind, sensitive, and giving person.

And all your good deeds will pay off - if they haven't already.

But you're not so concerned with what you get in return anyway.

You have an innate caring nature - and nothing can change that!

How's Your Karma?

You are 47% Taurus

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

why am i dye'n to live, if im just living to die?

2005-04-03T09:17:13Z

yo pplz, long time no update.. to say i've been busy would be a good statment. anyways nothing new here, waitin on thursday.. going to the marlins game.. friday is the muse concert at FAU hootie hoo!..lol i slay me.. anyways yeah ok if anyone knows any good music please drop it on the LJ it shall be greatfully appreciated

~Run from da police.. picture that nigga im to fat, id fuck around and catch asma attack~
~They use to call me Fatso, now yall call me Castro~
Biggie Smallz

Disney Pics.. there are a lot..lol

2005-01-04T19:25:46Z

Mickey in Down Town Disney Store

Minnie and Me!! you see wishes do come true!

Casa De Minnie

Casa De Mickey

Minnie in the parade I love that mouse

Mickey's PhilarMagic.. a must see ppl a must see.

A Super Cute Lisence Plate

Dale and Me

Going Down Splash Mountain

Thunder Mountain

Oh yea thats pimp

The Little Mermaid thingi

Disney Fireworks

Last but no least john passed out

Ok thats it, well theres more but i dont wanna show them..lol, as you can see yes i am an 19 year old kid, and i love it

and remember let your conscience be your guide

On the Frozen Tundra of Pro Player Stadium

2004-12-22T02:54:18Z

Let it be Known Children that On December 20 2004 the 2 - 11 dolphins played the the 12 - 1 patirots.. everone said the patriots would blow them away... Well to everyone who said that you can "blow" yourselfs hahaha yea thats right what a game what a game The DOLPHINS WON 29 -28!!!! and here are some pics of it!!

Sammy Night gettin one of 2 pics oh yes tom brady is a lil bitch

one word..Ayanbadejo

hahahaha remember when i said tom bradys a lil bitch.. hahahaha he is

well now the Horse Trailer Players of the game were without a shadow of a doubt were Jason Taylor and Sammy Knight

and on that note... Peace.. and

miami has the dolphins the greatest football team we kick the ball from goal to goal like no ones ever seen where in the air were on the ground were always in control and when you say miami were talkin.. well this year we whooped up on the last years super bowl champs!

oh and dont the orange jerseys sexy

Mike

cheer_mikey79 @ 2004-10-24T12:57:00

2004-10-24T17:06:13Z

hey al. i havnt updated in a good minute but its all good been busy, well as you all know tis the season for screams and candy, ah yes halloween. and the only way to really get in the mood is by waqtching the best halloween movie ever! no none of the mike myers or fredycugers movies oh no.. Tim Burrtons Nightmare Before Christmas. Yes the best halloween movie and almost best christmas movie ever as well..

What's this? What's this?
There's color everywhere
What's this?
There's white things in the air
What's this?
I can't believe my eyes
I must be dreaming
Wake up, Jack, this isn't fair
What's this?

What's this? What's this?
There's something very wrong
What's this?
There are people singing songs

What's this?
The streets are lined with
Little creatures laughing
Everybody seems so happy
Have I possibly gone daffy?
What is this?
What's this?

There are children throwing snowballs here
Instead of throwing heads
They're busy building toys
And absolutely no one's dead

There's frost on every window
Oh, I can't believe my eyes
And in my bones I feel the warmth
That's coming from inside

Oh, look
What's this?
They're hanging the mistletoe, they kiss
Why that looks so unique, inspired
They're gathering around to hear a story
Roasting chesnuts on a fire
What's this?
What's this?

In here they've got a little tree, how queer
And who would ever think
And why?

They're covering it with tiny little things
They've got electric lights on strings
And there's a smile on everyone
So, now, correct me if I'm wrong
This looks like fun
This looks like fun
Oh, could it be I got my wish?
What's this?

Oh, my, what now?
The children are asleep
But look, there's nothing underneath
No ghouls, no witches here to scream and scare them
Or ensnare them, only cozy little things
Secure inside their dreamland
What's this?

The monsters are all missing
And the nightmares can't be found
And in their place there seems to be
Good feelings all around

Instead of screams, I swear
I can hear music in the air
The smell of cakes and pies
Is absolutely everywhere

The sights, the sounds
They're everywhere and all around
I've never felt so good before
This empty place inside of me is filling up
I simply cannot get enough

I want it, oh, I want it
Oh, I want it for my own
I've got to know
I've got to know
What is this place that I have found?
What is this?
Christmas Town, hmm...

songs im jammin too

2004-09-30T22:32:36Z

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
______________________________________________________

Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

____________________________________

I hear... a voice say "Don't be so blind"...
it's telling me all these things...
that you would probably hide...
am I... your one and only desire...
am I the reason you breathe...
or am I the reason you cry...

Always... always... always... always... always... always...
always...
I just can't live without you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that i'm out the door...
and now i'm done with you...

I feel... like you don't want me around...
I guess i'll pack all my things...
I guess i'll see you around...
Its all... been bottled up until now...
as I walk out your door...
all I hear is the sound...

Always... always... always... always... always... always...
always...
I just can't live without you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't get around you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that i'm out the door...
and now i'm done with you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...

I left my head around your heart...
Why would you tear my world apart...

Always... always... always... always...

I see... the blood all over your hands...
does it make you feel... more like a man...
was it all... just a part of your plan...
the pistol's shakin' in my hands...
and all I hear is the sound...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I guess that i'm out the door...
and now i'm done with you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take any more...
this life of solitude...
I pick myself off the floor...
and now i'm done with you...
Always...
Always...
Always...

_____________________________________

Gotta leave town
Got another appointment
Spent all my rent
Girl you know I enjoyed it

Ain’t gonna hang around
till there’s nobody dancing
I don’t wanna hold hands
And talk about our little plans, alright!

Cold hard bitch
Just a kiss on the lips
And I was on my knees
I’m waiting, give me
Cold hard bitch
She was shakin’ her hips
That’s all that I need

Gonna check her out
She’s my latest attraction
Gonna hang ‘round
Wanna get a reaction

Gonna take her home
‘cos she’s over romancing
Don’t wanna hold hands
and talk about her plans alright!

Cold hard bitch
Just a kiss on the lips
And I was on my knees
I’m waiting give me
Cold hard bitch
She was shakin’ her hips
And I that was all that I need
I’m waiting give me
Cold hard bitch
Just a kiss on the lips
And I was on my knees

Yeah I’m waiting
Yeah I’m waiting
Yeah I’m waiting
Yeah I’m waiting

Cold hard bitch
Just a kiss on the lips
And I was on my knees
I’m waiting give me
Cold hard bitch
She was shakin’ her hips
And I was all that I need
I’m waiting give me
Cold hard bitch
Just a kiss on the lips
And I was on my knees
I’m waiting give me

__________________________________

Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
what creates my own madness
and I'm addicted to your punishment
and you're the master
and I am waiting for disaster

Chorus-
I feel irrational
So confrontational
To tell the truth I am
getting away with murder
it isn't possible
to ever tell the truth
but the reality is I'm getting away with murder
(Getting away, Getting away, Getting away)

I drink my drink and I don't even want to
I think my thoughts when I don't even need to
I never look back cause I don't even want to
and I don't need to
because I'm getting away with murder

Chorus

cheer_mikey79 @ 2004-09-27T22:49:00

2004-09-28T02:56:53Z

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This is how im going

2004-09-19T20:06:13Z

i dont believe i found this

2004-07-21T19:56:58Z

I found this article today but was done in May.. its about me, and well if you dont want to read it, then dont, its all good to me

http://www.sun-sentinel.com/media/acrobat/2004-03/11858715.pdf
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He finds time to play football and be a cheerleader as well

By Tara Goodin
Marjory Stoneman Douglas High

Boys on the football field, girls cheering on the sidelines. This traditional image looms throughout the entertainment industry and in many high schools. But Coral Springs Charter School senior Mike Crawson defies these stereotypes with his involvement as both a cheerleader and football player.

"I don't care what people think of me," Crawson said. "I am just a fun-going person and enjoy both sports in different ways,"

While Crawson's categorization as a football player is considered socially normal, his role as a cheerleader is a 21st century phenomenon.

"When I tell people that I am both a cheerleader and a football player, people usually look at me strange and question me, but I never let that bother me," he said.

As a cheerleader, he is part of the competition team whose season starts at the end of football season, so Crawson is busy with sports most of the school year.

Crawson's strength as an athlete comes in handy, as he performs a vital role in striving to keep the cheerleading squad injury-free. "I make sure that flyers are safe when performing a stunt," he said.

Starting out his athletic career for the Coral Springs Charter football team as defensive tackle, he found the initial transition to cheerleading difficult.

"In football, if you get tackled you can look upset. But in cheerleading, if you fall or get hurt you just have to keep smiling. That was a hard transition for me," Crawson said.

Both teams have provided great opportunities and experiences for Crawson, he said, and he does not regret joining either team.

"I have fun being on both teams," Crawson said. "People consider me an athlete; I play football and lead cheers. I am not considered a jock or prep."

Crawson's involvement in each sport proves that stereotypes are not always correct.

yup thats me! well imma bouce, see you all on the flip side

mikey